Geez, where did the time go?
Hi guys, Princess of the Heart (or Ennabre Nella) here. I....so much has changed on this site since I was last here. That was....2018? And now we're in the middle of 2023. I don't know if anybody will see this, but I hope everyone has been doing their best to be okay. The past few years have been....not so great for us. Many have lost loved ones....and probably themselves, too. I myself had a series of complicated health issues that I'm still recovering from...but I'm doing better. I'm in a place where I'm not constantly stressed out and worrying about things all the time. I'm finding my calling and even though I stopped drawing because of my laptop dying on me for all these years, where there's a will, there's a way. I've started back at it again and I hope to not lose motivation like that again. It hasn't been easy, but I'm getting better at steering myself back on track. I've come to terms with certain things in my life and realized that my time on here was the result of not being able to properly deal with my personal issues. I was around people that thought protecting me was conforming me to a box of what they thought was safety, but it ended up doing more damage than good, and now that I'm 32 years old, I have to spend the rest of my adult life unlearning and undoing all those things that hurt me in the past. It....hasn't been easy, but it's been going fairly well. In my absence, I have come to terms with the fact that I am bisexual, I no longer attend church, and I've been getting more in touch with my heritage. Last time I was on here, I mentioned I had a given birth to a little person. She's not so little anymore, and despite her diagnosis with high functioning autism, she's incredibly bright and makes honor roll every quarter. I couldn't be prouder. I hope everyone too has found something to smile about during these times. I don't know if I'm back forever, but I did want you guys to at least hear something from me. If I have to leave for a long time again, please remember this: you have two worlds...the one in front of you, and the one around you. You can use your world to shape the world around you, but remember, your world is what you make it. Love you guys. Have a good evening.
I'm Alive...I swear...
I moved.
I got engaged.
The engagement went south.
I'm a single mom.
I'm overweight and depressed with post pardom on top of that.
My job is killing me.
I have no laptop to post digital art and I'very lost some of my skills.
I go under the pen name Ennabre' Nella.
That's also my Facebook name.
I've become a nutcase, but...I try to be a good person still.
That about covers it....I hope to get a laptop soon. I really want to catch up with everyone.
Jazz out
Any suggestions?
Buried in Sorrows...
Apology
I've been really wanting to get something off my chest here. First off, I have an undying feeling that some of you think I just ditched you. That's not the case at all. It was just at the time, I was a senior in college and all my classes needed my full attention. There were times where I could let you guys know that DeVry hadn't buried me six feet under, but I want to tell you right now: if you ever felt like I just disappeared on you, I truly apologize. I just had a lot going on and I needed to deal with it. I also apologize for what I'm about to say next: I'm currently searching for employment, so I still may not be on here as often. Jazzy's got a lot to do and not a whole lot of time to do it. So until then, take care of yourselves and try to stay out of trouble, okay?
See you around,
Jazzy.